Soon enough it will be the start of a new year, of 2018. I thought that today’s post would be about the reflections of our accomplishments and success’ of the year, as well as the minor short comings (but not too many).
Think about this time last year, when we approaching 2017. Who were you then? Have you changed since then? One thing I can say is yes more than likely that you have. Every year we grow, transform and sometimes regress backwards. It can happen.
It is always good to look back and see where we are now and to then look forward.
But firstly look back, back to the year behind us. What milestones have you reached? What steps have you taken to reach your goals and dreams? What mistakes have you made? Look at the sand within the hour-glass and see it full, soon you will turn it over to start again.
When I look at my milestones and achievements I look at how I eventually passed my theory test on my driving, something which held me back all them years ago when I initially started to learn to drive. I think I was scared of the failure, a slight perfectionism within me, but now not so much. Instead I jumped in and did it.
I volunteered with my local GP for an initiative not just because I wanted to help others, but really help myself. As someone who is unemployed and still is I wanted to be involved in something. Put my talents and skills to use, as well as building my confidence. Which it has. Now I am confident because I decided to jump in. You might have noticed a theme here.
I decided to take risks more, some small and others big like volunteering in meeting new people and gaining their trust in completing tasks. I took the risk of restarting this blog and become dedicated to posting on set days, hoping people will read it. If they don’t I carry on because it helps me, as writing is a passion of mine and I just keep writing!!
But one flaw I do have is not wanting to do things on my own. I said I have confidence, but not always enough courage and self belief that I can do something on my own and it will be okay. I would love to travel more and see places like you see people do on their own all the time, someday I just might be like that, but that is something I need to work on.
One thing that may have impacted your year is the people who have come and gone from your life this year. This is something I can relate to whole heartedly as earlier in the year I lost a friend who I met on my dialysis/transplant journey. I remember hearing off Natalie’s mum knowing that it was either she had a transplant or had died, unfortunately it was the latter. I was devastated in hearing she had gone, but I had hope in remembering the good times we had, the moments we shared. Even though we weren’t close, we still talked every now and then. So I believe people come and go in and out of our lives for a reason, a purpose. What that is I cannot say, as everyone is different, but remembering them keeps them alive and the impact they have on you.
Furthermore upon the subject of people and the expectations we portray and receive. I always try and treat people the way I want to be treated, but a lot of the time it is not returned. I and like many others find this disappointing that you sound get the same back as you might have done for other. My advice for that and something I learnt is know your limits with people, only take so much before you make a change in your behaviour or even to that person. It may sound harsh, but take into next year of knowing your individual limits and not over sacrificing for someone else, who doesn’t always appreciate what you have done and who you are as a person!
In looking forward 2018 will bring the same triumphs, tribulations, happiness and sorrow as before it just in how we deal with it all. Whatever may hit you in the upcoming year, just bring it and take it on head first!